An Update

So, like magic the holiday season is upon us. And also like magic, it will soon be gone. This season pretty much wiped me out. There was so much going on and happening that I couldn't take the time to enjoy it...I still can't because there's more celebrating this week.
It is hard to describe, but for those who know me, perhaps it will relate. This year, Christmas just felt like another typical day...except, I didn't have to go to work. It's a horrible thought much less the feeling that surrounds this. I am still not in the holiday spirit...yet for the sake of those near me, I played Christmas very well.
I hate the fact that Christmas this year was just another day. Is my faith slipping? Am I forgetting the real reason for the season? Have I lost my mind! I'm afraid I do not know the answer. I know deep down that God is the reason and we celebrate Jesus' birth...I have no doubts about that. I may have lost my mind...
It's horrible because it's a depressed, lonely feeling. It was horrible to tell Josh to his face that I didn't want Christmas this year and that I didn't want to set up a tree or decorate my house or spend time with the in-laws and extended family. It was the hardest thing I've done. Of course, like in the Grinch, it didn't stop Christmas from coming. It came...with bells, whistles, dog treats, goodies, toys, books, paintings, food, fun, and laughter. It came all the same...but it was still just another day.
I think part of it stems from the fact that Christmas is so advertised that it loses the meaning. Couple that with the thought that everyone has to work every second and always be on the go and a person just gets beat. =o(
It bites the big one...I will post more soon and pictures as well.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!